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Tuesday, March 25, 2008, 6:17 AM
I can't help but to do another post.i guess things would nvr be the same again. This sentence kept ringing in my mind.I don't know why.But i guess ChenTao's it. Even if I were to meet him,or become friends with him again,things would never be the same again.And that's a fact i have to accept.I dreamt of him,we were sitting by the bank of the waters,he cheered up me.But when I woke up,I cried.The dream just went pop.And it never came back after that.It's really tearing me up,like a running tap.The water is gone,but yet,sorrow's there.I don't know what to do next.I feel so helpless.You will never know the feeling of crying when you are having a flu.When I come to think about it,I feel really stupid,crying for a person who has probably forgotten about my existence.Really.Things have been so wrong for me lately.Problems and stuffs just came crashing down.A stop is never put to it.WHY?!I know why.I wasn't good enough for you.But I really miss you like crazy.You are someone i miss so much.I am someone you don't even care about.you don't give a damn about it,right?I'm so sorry,I have been so emotional lately.People,just tolerate,or just walk away.I'm now giving you a choice.Sorry.ChenTao,whatever you have said never failed to affect me emotionally.You always managed to cheer me up,and make me jealous over those girls.I don't know why.But everything's just so sudden.I'm sorry,but I know I am starting to sound like a kid.But I am.I'm only 14,I also need care and concern right.If you see me exceptionally happy,it may mean I am hiding something.Why are fairytales always with a happy ending?But in reality,that never happens.At least for me.I don't know what steps I should take now.I need nothing but chentao.And it can never happen.It's really making me breakdown.I am already so tired with everything,I even have thoughts of putting a stop to my life.But whenever I think about percussion,my studies and my friends who care for me,I just can't bear to. Labels: I'm a tap |